Yesterday was hard

Yesterday I drove my husband to the airport and said goodbye to him for atleast the next 6 weeks. He is near Chicago attending a school for the blind and visually impaired. After he was retired from the Marine Corps we didn't think we'd ever be apart for more than a few days at a time. So, while he was hugging and kissing our kids goodbye I was walking upstairs crying because although it is hard to tell your spouse goodbye, it's even harder to see them hug/kiss their kids goodbye. When he deployed to Iraq, Aidan fell asleep and Shae wasn't really aware of what was going on. This time they both understand and I'm wishing they were still unaware.

Today will be my first day with the kids to myself. We will have to stick to our busy schedule and not dwell on the fact that daddy isn't there to kiss them good night. I'll lay in my big bed and cuddle with his pillow that he thoughtfully sprayed with his cologne. If I'm feeling really lonely I can wear one of his t-shirts. I can wake up in the middle of the night and text him...."I love you and miss you babe." I know he won't get it until he wakes up the next morning, but he will not go a day without me telling him.

He was nervous to fly by himself. He had his cane and sunglasses on. People are rude. Hello, you see a guy walking with his cane sweeping from side to side....get over. As the flight attendant came to get him to take him on the plane we hugged and kissed goodbye. When I got to my car I text him. When I got home I text him. He called when he landed and said it was a rough landing...which was hard enough for him when he could see what was going on. He got his luggage and was waiting for his driver. He got to the school and is now trying to not be so nervous about his new surroundings.  My Big Bad Marine has a hard time asking for help, but I think him being in a new place will make him realize that he will need help sometimes. I wish I was there to help him, but I know he needs to do this on his own.

So, the next few weeks will have its ups and downs and I am hoping that when I get to fly out to see him that he has learned it is ok to ask for help...it doesn't make you any less of a "man". :)

Barbeque!!!!!

Tonight my family and I are going to K & M BBQ which if you don't live near the Spring Hill, Olathe, Overland Park, KS area.....you don't know what you're missing. I'm not sure if they are located other places, but YUM!!!!! I have been looking at the menu to see what I'm going to order....plan ahead!!!!! I'm thinking I'll order chicken, cottage cheese, and broccoli. I'll probably be full with just the chicken, but you pay the same with or without the sides. My daughter loves cottage cheese and broccoli so I know she'll eat it if I don't.

I have an appt on Tuesday and I am HOPING that I've lost some poundage....:).   I will probably get a fill...I hope so anyway. I just don't feel any restriction. Well, if I eat bread, but I think I should be feeling it with other foods too, right?

I've been reading some posts from Jen, a priorfatgirl, and she is reading a book called the Beck Diet. I am wondering if it would be worth me reading. I've read books on dieting before...can't you tell it's worked????  I just don't wanna buy a book and then it stink. If I'm going to buy a book it has to be a book I know I'll like. Has anyone else read the Beck Diet??

Bloggity blog

I am watching the "People's Choice Awards" and am looking at Queen Latifah....and I know I've thought this before and I just keep saying it in my head....She is a beautiful woman!!!! I seriously wish I looked like her. She doesn't look "fat"....and I've read she's happy with her weight.

So anyway, the weather here is snowy...cold....snowy....windy....snowy....cold. Do you get the picture?? My DH wished for a white Christmas...well, there has been snow on the ground since then. My kids just went back to school from their winter break on Tuesday and they have cancelled school for tomorrow, so they are home again. Atleast with my husband not being able to work I don't have to pay for a sitter! LOL!!! He's getting ready to leave for a couple of months and I am trying to figure out how to get the kids taken care of on days that they do not have school. I'm hoping my mom will be able to come visit. :\

Yesterday my DH made BLTs. Now back in the day...before my surgery I could eat two with no problem. Well, I got that first one done and knew I couldn't eat another one, but didn't want to waste the bacon. I ate like two bites and looked at him and with sad eyes (cuz I wanted that other one) I asked "Would you please eat that sandwich so it won't go to waste?" LOL!!!!! I had to walk away because I wanted it but knew I would just be in the bathroom leaning over the toilet wishing it would just fall out of my stomach with no work from me. Ugh!!!!!

Well, I am going to sign off for the night. I want to get some recipes writeen down before I go to bed. It's what I do when I want to go to the kitchen and eat....I dream about eating the delicious food I write down.  Have a good night and stay warm.

Productive Day....

This morning I woke up to let my dog, Elvis, out then I got on my laptop to start writing while I waited for everyone else to get up.  My husband and I were going to paint our son's bedroom. We are huge Kansas State fans....and our school mascot is the Wildcats also. So, we painted his walls purple, got him a K-State bedspread and we are getting curtains to go in his room also.

Yesterday for New Year's my husband made a ham in his Big George Rotisserie and I made some potatoes with onions and a little bit of velveeta. We decided we would just eat that whenever we got hungry. I am so hammed out though. So, we are going to Red Robin for dinner. (=   Yummy!!!!!!

I am getting ready to hop in the shower and get ready for my yummy dinner that I probably won't be able to eat.  I get so hungry that I hurry....and then it gets stuck. Oh well.

Have a good weekend all!!!!!!!!!!!