What I intended......

Ok, I intended for this to be a blog following my weight loss journey. Well, that isn't how it's ended up. I read all of these blogs of people, who like me, have the band and their blogs are awesome! I tend to forget I have this blog....so I wonder if I should just stop altogether or make it a point to blog.


Ok....weight loss info. I had an appt last week and got another fill. My doctor said I am ahead of the "norm". What is normal???? Normal is not getting fat to begin with. Right? Normal people don't get over weight and then have surgery to get over it...right??? Wrong! Whose to say I'm not normal? Whose to say that having surgery was the "easy" way out? Is the "easy" way out being scared you're going to vomit when you take too big of a bite....because it's stuck and won't go down? Hell no!!!!! Surgery isn't the easy way out. You can still gain weight with the band. It's a tool, not a cure. It is so irritating that people consider it easy. When I first decided to get the lap band surgery, I didn't want to tell anyone because I didn't want to hear "You can do the same thing with diet and exercise." Not everyone is able to lose weight just by doing that. Now I am doing that in conjuction with my lap band. I need that reminder if I start to eat too much. 

My doctor asked me if I've found my "sweet spot" yet. At that time I hadn't yet, but now when I eat and get the hiccups, that is when I know to stop.  LOL!  I have always hated it when I get the hiccups....so OF COURSE that is my "sweet spot" signal.  Sometimes though I get them early in my meal and I think  "No way am I done!!!!" 

Well, I need to get some other stuff done. I need to also think about if I am going to continue blogging. I need some ideas!!!

What a night!

Tonight after work, I drove my husband and kids up to KC to meet my in-laws. From there they were headed for their trip to Kentucky. They go every year. I would've loved to go, but I didn't have the time at work to do it. Plus a co-worker recently had surgery so that would've left the office shorthanded. For a day or two before they go til they come back I constantly pray they will get there safe, be safe while they are there, and have a safe trip back. I even have a little cross that fits in my hand and I sleep with it at night. I don't know what I would ever do if I lost my husband/kids.

Last night I made myself a tuna sandwich with a sliced hard boiled egg on it. I was so hungry and probably took too big of a bite. Last night was the first night I vomited since my surgery. Then tonight I got BoLings Chinese food. Was so hungry when I got home and once again...too big of a bite...and vomited again. Thought I got it all back up....took another bite...vomited again....did that a few times. This really sucks. I wrapped the food up and will try to eat it probably later tonight or tomorrow for lunch. I don't know how it'll taste but I don't want to waste it.

I am also so frustrated with a friend. Not Carrie or Donna. How many times can you tell someone that they are important to you and you go out of your way to spend time with them, but can they do the same in return????? HELL NO!!!!

This weekend we went back to our hometown and went to a suprise birthday party. It was so much fun. Danced for the first time in forever. Saw a couple of old friends. Saw a couple people I could've done without seeing. There was one chick I felt like going up to and laughing in her face. LOL! I wonder why her husband hasn't went Coyote Ugly on her ass!!!!???? I know, "Sharon, that's mean!!!" I can't help it. She thinks she is so much better than me. So not true.

My daughter just turned 10...yesterday. My son turns 7 in January. Thanksgiving and Christmas are in between. Busy time of year for us...and expensive. I need to get my Dave Ramsey books back out and get back on track. Bill and I are wanting SOOOO bad to get our financial stuff in order. To be able to know that if something happens we will be ok.

Well, it had been awhile since I had written for awhile and while I know I needed to do some writing, it took a friend asking if I still blogged to get my butt on here to write. I hope that everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving.

Wii Fit Plus

Got my Wii Fit Plus today. I also got the Biggest Loser "game" with it. So....tonight I did my first workout. I did the beginner level and ended up doing 40 minutes....warm up, workout, cool down. I enjoyed it so hopefully I'll keep up with it. I can feel it in my legs right now. They don't really hurt, but they feel weak.

Bad news my family has received recently. My husband's Grandpa (the only grandparent he has left) has just been diagnosed with cancer. Tuesday we should find out all the particulars, but we are pretty sure about what we are going to find out. My husband and the kids are supposed to go see him in Kentucky for Thanksgiving, but if they end up putting him in the hospital on Tuesday then the kids will not be able go to Kentucky. That totally sucks because I am unable to take off of work. If I could I'd go to Kentucky also. This may be the last time my husband sees his Grandpa.

I went to the dr the other day, but didn't get a fill because the dr felt that my portions were the right size and I had lost a few pounds since my last appointment. Hopefully by my next appointment (with the help of my Wii fit Plus) I'll lose some more!!!! YEA!!!!!!!!!!

Well, I'm watching "The Proposal" with my family so I am going to go. xoxo

Feeling poopy....

Hello fellow bloggers. Haven't written on here for awhile. I am just really feeling overwhelmed right now. My two kids were sick for what seemed like FOREVER with the flu and my wonderful husband is the one who was stuck at home with them. I feel bad, but when I get home I know he wants adult conversation (I've been there...when he was in the Marine Corps and I was home all day) and I want peace and quiet. I deal with customers all day who are either very nice (YEA) or very rude (then my mouthiness comes out!!!!!).

My son is in his last 2 weeks of football, but basketball has started so he has football on Tuesdays and Thursdays with games either on Saturday or Sunday and he has basketball on Wednesdays and THursdays with games on Saturday. AND my daughter has dance on Wednesdays....with basketball starting when my son's season is over!!!!! So, weekends are busy and I can't get much done....or what I want done anyway.

I have these lists constantly going through my head of what I want to do. I have a crap load of recipe books that I never use so I am going through them and marking recipes I want to write down....eventually!!!!! I really need to come up with some healthier meal options that even my picky son will eat!!!!

I went and got a fill last week. I just don't know if it's working. I hope I haven't stretched my pouch. I am tempted to just do protein shakes for a few days and then go back to mushy for a few days....and so on. Maybe if I do that then I will feel the restriction????? Any ideas?

I am just feeling really anxious with wanting to do all this stuff and not knowing what I'll be able to get done. My daughter's bday is next month, then we have Christmas, and my son's bday is in January. Guess it's just a bad time of year. Ugh.....I wanna sleep for a few months and wake up with everything taken care of!!!!!

Germs, no restriction, saying I'm sorry, best friend, and grumbling

Ugh....germs are all over my house. Lysol disinfectant has become my best friend. My kids had the flu and now my husband is fighting it. They were out of school for 3 days and my poor husband has been in the house with them and now he is miserable. So far I am doing good....knock on wood.

I have my appt next week and I know I'll get another fill. I haven't had any restriction in the past couple of weeks....I could probably eat a whole pizza if I wanted to, but I don't want to. The other day I got rid of 2 garbage bags of clothes that do not fit anymore. WOO HOO!!!!!! It was kinda scary because it's like what if I fail and I need my bigger "fat" clothes?????? I refuse to let myself get back to that, but it's like throwing away a baby's binky that they just HAVE to have or putting away the blanky that your youngest has to take to school. Ya know?? This is work....it's not taking the easy way out like some people think. Having surgery is never easy...and it isn't cheap. I just can't wait until next week! Is it sad that I look forward to getting a needle stuck into my stomach????

Today I apologized to a girl I went to high school with for being a b*tch. I didn't hate her personally (although she was this petite thing that all the guys wanted....grrrr....we cheered together)just the fact that she was dating my best guy friend and it was like I couldn't be his friend while he was dating her. Thinking back it was sooooo "high school", but it felt good saying I was sorry. I told her it was like getting a weight lifted off my shoulders....too bad it wasn't lifted off of my a$$! LOL!

I want to go see my best friend in South Carolina. She's been going through a rough time and it's gotten a little better, but I want to go see her. I went there last year and it rained the whole time, but I loved it there.

Well, I've grumbled enough today...it started early with an annoying customer!!!! I'm going to watch Gray's Anatomy and then head off to bed.

Are you kidding me?

I'm a flirt. I'm not going to apologize. If someone doesn't like it or whatever, then just tell me, but do not reciprocate the flirting. My husband and I are crazy like that...we flirt with eachothers friends. Big Deal. We've been together 17 years...we've had our "thick and thin, in sickness and in health"...we are still together and we love eachother.

I should've gotten a fill at my last appt. My next appt isn't for 2 weeks and I don't want to show up there and find out I've gained weight. Ugh. The holidays are coming up and all of that good food. Yummy!

I'm trying to talk my friend, Donna, into moving here with her kids. My family loves them all. She doesn't like where she is and liked it here when she visited...so what's the hold up!? LOL!!!!! Well, I'll quit boring everyone. Just wanted to vent a little bit! Thanks for "listening"!!!! xoxox

Ugh....

Ugh...today I faced the scale and wanted to throw it out the window! The past few days I've been a cow. I grazed all day while at work....crackers, a Hershey's kiss....I feel horrible about it! I have a protein bar in my desk drawer and completely forgot about it until the damage had been done. I was reading on LBT about some people joining WW. I don't want to pay to journal. I have done WW and still have my books so I can find points that way and journal on my own, BUT if I had followed through on that I wouldn't be overweight. Ya know??? I just have to be strong!!! I didn't get a fill at my last appt because I had lost 4 lbs in the 2 weeks since my prior appt, but now I'm wondering if I should call and see if they can squeeze me in. I'd only had 2 fills since my surgery in July. Anybody have any suggestions or feel free to slap me upside the head for complaining!!!! Well, I am going to end this for now. It's Friday and I don't have any plans tonight so maybe I'll get back on and journal some more. It seems to calm me.